I’m at that magical, for me, moment in [[Robertson Davies]] *Fifth Business* where Dunstable is rejecting Diana, who wants to marry him but who, he knows, really wants to mother him and he is determined to be his own man. He is going to leave England, return to Canada, and go to university. He knows he needs more education. > [!Orbit] Dunstable writes, > …what I most wanted was time to grow up. The war had not matured me; I was like a piece of meat that is burned on one side and raw on the other, and it was on the raw side I needed to work. (p. 89) I had forgotten that these words weren’t just [[Metaphor]]. Dunstable had been burnt by exploding flames, the shrapnel from them, as he was being a hero cleaning out a German machine gun nest. The burns were on his left side, the side of reason. He needed to work, as do I, on our raw side, our undeveloped side, the right side of feeling and [[Intuition]]. This is fascinating. Note later: It’s also wrong. Left side of body means right side of brain and vice versa. Oh well, never let fact get in the way of a good insight! ##### Written while on silent private retreat at Beach House, Allumette Island, Quebec